What Am I?

What am I? This rippled figure
In the water, makes me think
Me, the epitome of shy-ness
Unable to take the initiative
The lover of books buried in
My best of friends, the new
Worlds that have yet to be
Discovered, here I am the
Loser of friends and mourner
Of lost causes, little me the
Meaner me, a ruder me
The lost me, with her friends
Of old, a dancer, a runner
Me, the changer, switcher of
Schools, Me avoider of conflict,
Is this what I am? The griever of
Friends, the denier of death,
Me the influencer of decisions,
Annoyer of the blind parental  figures,
Me, the simpler me, a hider, a
Disappearer of epic proportions
The only person that sees all this is
The better me, the perfecter me,
The truer me hidden in my reflection.